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Identical twins we have here!!!

These are posters that I made for final exam (thanks again to my sister for the help :’) @yangauliaa). I was contemplated between black or red as the background color, at the end I picked…..

Anyway, the poster is about Deindividuation. It’s a condition when you lose your sense of self by being in the crowd. In other words you can’t be identified. That way you’ll have more courage to do unimaginable things, than when you’re on your own.

The poster I made depicted anonymity by having people in masks and in similar outfits. It makes them hard to recognize. They feel hidden, and ‘safe’ to do just anything. For example, vandalism, as in the poster, to draw graffiti on public places.

Another example could be by being online. Cyberspace. Such huge crowd, isn’t it? That’s why we often heard many cases such as cyberbullying, or just ordinary people we know being mean online, etc.


Play with the family


After ages I finally am writing a drama review. (Haha it happened to be the last review that I wrote is exactly a year ago!) Seriously, not just a glimpse of dialogues or little quotes, but real review. As I was really confused to decide from piles of dramas that I watched, I asked my sister to randomly chose a number from the list and number 74 turned out to be this drama! So let’s just begin.

Kazoku Game or Family Game is a family drama that has a taste of dark comedy. It started with a scene of a guy screaming in the middle of nowhere with blooded hands (just to remind you this isn’t gonna be the last time you see it) then it abruptly adverted to a family in a living room.

Here, an ideal family of four is having a little problem with the youngest son, Numata Shigeyuki. He refuses to come to school and also has really bad grades as the side (main) problem. The parents who have a high expectation on their kids (no underachiever is allowed) decides to call a private tutor to help in solving the case. That private tutor is the screaming guy earlier, which the name is Yoshimoto Koya (Sakurai Sho). Numata Kazuhige, the father, challenges Koya to make Shigeyuki come back to school in a week with a 100.000 yen as bonus. Koya undoubtedly agrees but under one condition: none of the family members should interfere with whatever methods he will use on Shigeyuki (don’t resort to violence! mom said. HAHAH sure)

Relax, mother

Relax, mother

If you think this is only about an eccentric tutor who helps his student get through his school and being all inspirational, then you’re kind of wrong (it’s FAMILY Game for god sake). The focus of the drama is not only on the youngest. And Koya is more than just a mere private tutor as well. As the dramas went we can see where actually the core problem lays; the family itself. The so called perfect family is actually crumbling inside. From the father who seems to forget his role, the mother who is more concerned of neighbors’ words, and big brother who pretends to care. It doesn’t even take a Koya to tell how this family is never a perfect one. Koya only reminds them of how their family has actually lost its meaning long time ago.

Father and Shinichi

Father and Shinichi

The way Koya act as a tutor is more like an intervention goes unnoticed. Nobody realizes that they are being the target of intervention except the older brother, Numata Shinichi (Kamiki Ryunosuke). He’s the only one who seek through this weird and mysterious tutor. As much as to his knowledge though, he actually doesn’t realize how he becomes the puppet of the tutor’s game as well. It’s understandable why that Koya said that they shouldn’t interfere with his methods, since it’s, well, unusual. Even, sometimes, I really couldn’t tell whether the tutor is just plain crazy or he really has plans, lol.

right, Shinichi?

right, Shinichi?

This is one of the dramas which I picked because of the actors, haha. Name it Kamiki Ryunosuke and Sakurai Sho. Bias aside, this drama is really interesting (Koya would say ‘iii nee’-it’s good), surely my kind of favorite type (psychological thriller ftw!). It was originally adapted from a novel by Honma Yohei and was already made into a movie back in 1983. These previous creations were award winning ones and fortunately the drama lived up to expectation as well. It had me shocked with its unpredictable twists. I found myself laughing out of creep and disbelief of what happened in the drama. Every time I finished an episode the soundtrack of the drama would linger in my mind, leaving me in curiosity.

To assure you, there are scenes like this too. It really is a family drama Usual morning routines

There are scenes like this too, so don’t worry it’s still family drama afterall

This drama is a portrayal of reality and that’s why it could be uncomfortable to watch. But, I mostly looove family drama and this would probably be my favorite one (on the side of dark family kind of drama, lol) I like how it kept me questioning what’ s gonna happen next and what is the real intention of this Koya guy. The relationships between Koya and each of the family members are so lovely hahah don’t know if that’s the right word to describe it, but I enjoyed it. And the main message that I could remember is about change. You may do everything you can to make a person change but at the end of the day is that person who would choose to change or not. And you’ve got to take action yourself if you really want revolution happens to you. Don’t just sit and watch things go by, while you actually have power to do something.

Anxiety Disorder


If you were a psychology student like me you may be familiar with the picture that I’m posting below. A 3rd year student I am, has now learned about clinical psychology in my class. Some of the disorder names may have been heard by you through movies or serial TVs or possibly books.

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It’s, as you can see there, Anxiety Disorder. A feeling of anxiety is normal for human, as we deal with a lot of things in life in a daily basis. But, it becomes a disorder when the amount of it is way out of proportion. Worry excessively about things that you shouldn’t be and is become bothersome to your life. That is what we call Anxiety disorder (and other symptoms that you should check in the holy book of clinical psychologist; DSM-V).

This is actually a group assignment; to make a flyer filled with the explanation of the disorder in a language that can be understood by common people. I got help from my sister (@yangauliaa) to draw the girl, and a little help on how to make the bubble (thanks a lot!).

I was having fun making this. I like the feeling of accomplishment when I finished it. I rarely use photoshop properly so it’s like a new thing to have it designed well like this. (although with help :p) Anyway, I hope through this flyer people can know more about what is Anxiety disorder, and learn it in a fun way!

All hail the leader


Since I’m not going to review this drama, I will just put a little psychology session out of it. Wait dear, what drama? The last drama review is a Korean one, so this time is Japanese drama, which is Hanazakarino Kimitachi e or for short is Hana Kimi. But this is the remake version of its own Japanese drama, released on 2011, so the title with a little revision, is Hana Kimi 2011. I don’t watch the original one, so no comparison whatsoever. The casts are good looking, and the story is okay. The general story is about a girl who follows her prince charming all the way from US to Japan and eventually to his school, which is an all-boy school, so she has to disguise herself as a boy.

Without further ado, let’s start the study session. So, I was paying attention to my classmates’ presentation in leadership class. They talked about Groups, Teams, and their Leadership (wait, don’t fall asleep just yet!). With the big book in my hand, I scrolled along the pages, and stumbled upon an interesting word “Ollieism” when I read the description it reminded me right away to one of the scenes in this drama.

It is when the school held an annual event which put a competition between the three dorms, the most anticipated contest is Beauty pageant contest. To know that this is an all-boy school, it must be entertaining to see who’s gonna be the prettiest. Each dorms picked their representatives, undoubtedly, The girl in disguise (Mizuki) was chosen. This competition heated up the tension between the dorms. They all wanted to win so bad that the attacks to the participant began. Mizuki’s costume got hit by a cake so she has to wash it minutes a way before contest. People from the first dormitory are those behind the idea of attacking others. The idea was to kidnap Mizuki (who they considered as the strongest opponent) so she couldn’t take part and they could win. But they took the wrong person with the same costume. 

In the end they got busted by people from the second dormitory (Mizuki’s), they all furious, because the people being kidnapped was an actual girl, a friend of Mizuki’s classmate. Turns out, the leader of the third dormitory didn’t know this happening. He’s the most idealist person on that school actually, So, he got mad to his juniors for this mindless act. And here’s what they said.



This is the form of Ollieism. So, it’s a variation of groupthink as the effect of highly cohesive group. This act occurs when illegal actions are taken by overly zealous and loyal subordinates who believe that what they’re doing will please their leader (Hughes, Ginnet, and Curphy, 2009). Ollieism happens without the knowledge or consent of the leader, yet the leader has to bear the responsibility of what his subordinates do. Because it is the leader’s duty to create an ethical climate in the group. Cohesive group is good but don’t forget the ethic still must be built. Thankfully, The head of first dormitory is a justified and highly responsible person, so immediately he did it.

I'm sorry!

I’m sorry!

With that being said, I will end this short psychology session today. hope that add something to your knowledge! 😀

Source: Leadership: Enhancing the lessons of experience (Hughes, Ginnett, and Curphy)

Be Skizo-friend


“Saya pandai menghapal Al-qur’an, dulu saya pernah ikut lomba tahfiz tingkat nasional..”

 Sementara saya dan teman-teman asik mendengarkan celotehan Iman, seorang teman laki-laki tengah sibuk menghindari kejaran Lila, gadis 15 tahun yang tampaknya tertarik dengan laki-laki satu-satunya yang datang hari itu. Ini cuplikan cerita yang saya alami waktu berkunjung ke Rumah Sakit Jiwa Islam di daerah Klender, Jakarta Timur (1/7/12).

Iman adalah orang pertama di tempat itu yang saya dengar kisah hidupnya. Ia berperawakan tenang. Tidak seperti bayangan saya soal RSJ yang berisi orang-orang dengan kesulitan pengedalian diri. Selain tenang, Iman juga tampak alim memakai koko, sarung dan peci. Meski tampil seperti itu, tetap ada perasaan takut, karena saya tahu, kalau tidak sakit, Iman tidak akan ada di sini. Iman dengan lancar mengatakan ia lulusan pesantren, seorang tahfiz handal yang sering mengikuti berbagai perlombaan, bahkan menjadi perwakilan Indonesia untuk lomba tingkat internasional, tetapi kalah. Saya sebetulnya percaya saja, kalau saja teman saya, yang seorang mahasiswi psikologi, tidak terus menahan senyumnya diam diam.

Seketika itu saya sadar. Saya sedang berada di Rumah Sakit Jiwa. Cerita siapa yang sekarang saya dengarkan? Usai menemani Iman, kami bergerak menelusuri bangsal perempuan, yang siang itu sedang beristirahat di luar kamar. Tiga orang wanita bercakap-cakap dengan rombongan peserta yang lain. Mereka semua tampak seperti ibu-ibu rumah tangga biasa. Seperti sedang berkumpul dalam arisan tetangga. Tetapi sekali lagi saya teringat bahwa mereka ada di sini pasti karena suatu alasan. Mungkin, selain Lila –gadis yang tampak terbelakang- orang yang terlihat jelas sakitnya adalah Rani. Gadis 14 tahun yang saat itu berada di kamar isolasi. Rani terus memukul-mukul pintu kamarnya minta dikeluarkan. Dari situlah saya baru merasa saya benar-benar ada di Rumah Sakit Jiwa.

Setelah berkumpul dengan para penghuni RSJ tersebut, kami diajak petugas RSJ, Pak Deni, untuk melihat-lihat berkas para penghuni. agar dapat mengetahui lebih jelas riwayat hidup, penyebab dan jangka waktu tinggal mereka di RSJ ini. Barulah saya tahu, masing-masing dari mereka, walau terlihat baik-baik saja, memiliki latar belakang penyakit yang cukup serius, dan berbeda-beda. Bipolar, depresi berat, paranoid, delusi waham kebesaran. Dan seperti yang sudah saya duga, hampir saja saya tertipu oleh kisah hidup Iman, si tahfiz handal. Iman menderita delusi waham kebesaran.

Waham kebesaran berarti ia mempercayai kehidupan yang biasanya lebih hebat dari yang dimilikinya, bahkan pada tingkat seakan-akan kehidupan buatan itu adalah asli kehidupannya.

Teman saya yang benar percaya sungguh kesal saat tahu kisah Iman hanya fantasi belaka. 😀

Pengalaman saya selama kurang lebih lima jam di RSJ klender tersebut sangat berharga. Mengingat saya juga mendalami psikologi, observasi langsung seperti itu sangat penting bagi saya. Meski saya sudah pernah mempelajari penyakit-penyakit jiwa tersebut di kelas, melihat dan berhubungan langsung terasa berbeda, dan tentunya menyenangkan. 

Yang pasti, saya merasakan syukur yang dalam atas kesehatan yang diberikan Allah SWT pada saya dan orang-orang yang saya sayangi sampai saat ini, bahkan untuk menulis kisah ini. 

Ana’s images

NB: Nama-nama yang ada di sini bukan nama sebenarnya 🙂

I think I was happier


“Dulu aku membaca bergunung-gunung buku dan sudah menamatkan semua buku cerita di Kotak Kisah di sekolah. Aku juga sering ke perpustakaan dan punya koleksi buku, hampir lima puluh banyaknya, beberapa lumayan sulit, mirip buku orang dewasa. Tapi sekarang aku memilih berbagai buku yang benar-benar kekanak-kanakan, yang kubaca bertahun-tahun lalu waktu umurku enam, tujuh, dan delapan tahun. Aku ingat saat pertama kali membaca buku-buku itu dan kadang bisa berkhayal jadi kecil lagi dan segalanya baik-baik saja”

The Suitcase Kid

by Jacqueline Wilson

This was taken from one of my favorite children’s book Author’s book -well that’s confusing- Jacqueline Wilson.

The Suitcase Kid is about a 10 year old girl, Andy, that has to deal with her parent’s broken marriage. The picture perfect of a little girl suddenly turns into everything she never wanted. She has to move from one house to another alternately as the final custody said for both. Mom and Dad already have new family with new siblings for her to adapt with. The suitcase kid she is, making her missing the beautiful past every child would ever long for. The happiness that she thinks she won’t get in the present time.

I took a bit of monologue from her, and it draws my attention on how she deals with her problem, her unhappiness. She take a step back on the type of book she reads. Just so she can feel the same pleasure when she was younger. That was what reminded me of psychological terms I’ve learnt, that is, Regression.

According to Freud, the founding father of psychoanalysis, Regression is a defense mechanism that revert the ego to earlier stage of developments instead of facing the problems in a more adult way. It could be temporary or long-term response. The defense mechanism of regression, in psychoanalytic theory, occurs when thoughts are pushed back out of our consciousness and into our unconscious.

So, people who use this mechanism could act back to their childhood/teenage responses, that way they think it’d help them coping the situation. Andy has her most happiness moment right before her parent’s divorce, so then she reverts the type of books she reads in order to help her cope the situation she faces after the divorce and stuffs. And here we call it Regression. In Andy’s case, it’s just a temporary response, thankfully. 

Anyhow, have you ever experience this kind of situation? not the divorce, but the moment that makes you unconsciously use Regression? 🙂