Play with the family


After ages I finally am writing a drama review. (Haha it happened to be the last review that I wrote is exactly a year ago!) Seriously, not just a glimpse of dialogues or little quotes, but real review. As I was really confused to decide from piles of dramas that I watched, I asked my sister to randomly chose a number from the list and number 74 turned out to be this drama! So let’s just begin.

Kazoku Game or Family Game is a family drama that has a taste of dark comedy. It started with a scene of a guy screaming in the middle of nowhere with blooded hands (just to remind you this isn’t gonna be the last time you see it) then it abruptly adverted to a family in a living room.

Here, an ideal family of four is having a little problem with the youngest son, Numata Shigeyuki. He refuses to come to school and also has really bad grades as the side (main) problem. The parents who have a high expectation on their kids (no underachiever is allowed) decides to call a private tutor to help in solving the case. That private tutor is the screaming guy earlier, which the name is Yoshimoto Koya (Sakurai Sho). Numata Kazuhige, the father, challenges Koya to make Shigeyuki come back to school in a week with a 100.000 yen as bonus. Koya undoubtedly agrees but under one condition: none of the family members should interfere with whatever methods he will use on Shigeyuki (don’t resort to violence! mom said. HAHAH sure)

Relax, mother

Relax, mother

If you think this is only about an eccentric tutor who helps his student get through his school and being all inspirational, then you’re kind of wrong (it’s FAMILY Game for god sake). The focus of the drama is not only on the youngest. And Koya is more than just a mere private tutor as well. As the dramas went we can see where actually the core problem lays; the family itself. The so called perfect family is actually crumbling inside. From the father who seems to forget his role, the mother who is more concerned of neighbors’ words, and big brother who pretends to care. It doesn’t even take a Koya to tell how this family is never a perfect one. Koya only reminds them of how their family has actually lost its meaning long time ago.

Father and Shinichi

Father and Shinichi

The way Koya act as a tutor is more like an intervention goes unnoticed. Nobody realizes that they are being the target of intervention except the older brother, Numata Shinichi (Kamiki Ryunosuke). He’s the only one who seek through this weird and mysterious tutor. As much as to his knowledge though, he actually doesn’t realize how he becomes the puppet of the tutor’s game as well. It’s understandable why that Koya said that they shouldn’t interfere with his methods, since it’s, well, unusual. Even, sometimes, I really couldn’t tell whether the tutor is just plain crazy or he really has plans, lol.

right, Shinichi?

right, Shinichi?

This is one of the dramas which I picked because of the actors, haha. Name it Kamiki Ryunosuke and Sakurai Sho. Bias aside, this drama is really interesting (Koya would say ‘iii nee’-it’s good), surely my kind of favorite type (psychological thriller ftw!). It was originally adapted from a novel by Honma Yohei and was already made into a movie back in 1983. These previous creations were award winning ones and fortunately the drama lived up to expectation as well. It had me shocked with its unpredictable twists. I found myself laughing out of creep and disbelief of what happened in the drama. Every time I finished an episode the soundtrack of the drama would linger in my mind, leaving me in curiosity.

To assure you, there are scenes like this too. It really is a family drama Usual morning routines

There are scenes like this too, so don’t worry it’s still family drama afterall

This drama is a portrayal of reality and that’s why it could be uncomfortable to watch. But, I mostly looove family drama and this would probably be my favorite one (on the side of dark family kind of drama, lol) I like how it kept me questioning what’ s gonna happen next and what is the real intention of this Koya guy. The relationships between Koya and each of the family members are so lovely hahah don’t know if that’s the right word to describe it, but I enjoyed it. And the main message that I could remember is about change. You may do everything you can to make a person change but at the end of the day is that person who would choose to change or not. And you’ve got to take action yourself if you really want revolution happens to you. Don’t just sit and watch things go by, while you actually have power to do something.

Anxiety Disorder


If you were a psychology student like me you may be familiar with the picture that I’m posting below. A 3rd year student I am, has now learned about clinical psychology in my class. Some of the disorder names may have been heard by you through movies or serial TVs or possibly books.

cr: kalengkentang

cr: kalengkentang

It’s, as you can see there, Anxiety Disorder. A feeling of anxiety is normal for human, as we deal with a lot of things in life in a daily basis. But, it becomes a disorder when the amount of it is way out of proportion. Worry excessively about things that you shouldn’t be and is become bothersome to your life. That is what we call Anxiety disorder (and other symptoms that you should check in the holy book of clinical psychologist; DSM-V).

This is actually a group assignment; to make a flyer filled with the explanation of the disorder in a language that can be understood by common people. I got help from my sister (@yangauliaa) to draw the girl, and a little help on how to make the bubble (thanks a lot!).

I was having fun making this. I like the feeling of accomplishment when I finished it. I rarely use photoshop properly so it’s like a new thing to have it designed well like this. (although with help :p) Anyway, I hope through this flyer people can know more about what is Anxiety disorder, and learn it in a fun way!

Dramas on my 2013 list


And now here is the list of dramas I watched in 2013! It started with Korean and we’ve got  Japanese in the middle then ended safely in Korean again. The battle is pretty tight but in the end Jdrama still won. I was happy that I could finally watched dramas that had been the talk of the town, like School 2013 and Reply 1997. As for Jdrama, among the list my favorites would be Kazoku Game and Akai Ito! I planned to write the reviews but yeah, let’s just see if it’d happen or not lol. All the dramas here have its own charm and to add that it has different genres so my liking toward each of them are varied as well. Comparing to last year (2012) I watched a lot less drama this year, but at the same time I read more books so is that a good thing or not? haha :D

Guess from which drama is this? much luck if you can read hangul

Guess from which drama is this? much luck if you can read hangul


  1. Flower Boy Next Door (2013) – Korean Drama
  2. Dragon Zakura (2005) – Japanese Drama
  3. Propose Kyodai (2011) – Japanese Drama
  4. Gokusen 2 (2005) – Japanese Drama
  5. Kazoku Game (2013) – Japanese Drama
  6. School 2013 (2013) – Korean Drama
  7. Reply 1997 (2012) – Korean Drama
  8. Nobunaga no Chef (2013) – Japanese Drama
  9. Detective Conan Live Action (2011) – Japanese Drama
  10. Akai Ito (2008) – Japanese Drama
  11. Otomen (2009) – Japanese Drama
  12. Innocent Love (2008) – Japanese Drama
  13. Good Doctor (2013) – Korean Drama
  14. Secret (2013) -Korean Drama
  15. Suspicious Housekeeper (2013) – Korean Drama
  16. Marry Him If You Dare (2013) – Korean Drama

Failed Books Mission 2013


Finally! Here is the list of books that I managed to read in 2013. It dosn’t meet up my target though which is 50 :( but nevertheless I read more books than last two years! I hope this year my reading spirit will be much better and stable because if you see the list, there are months when I didn’t read at all and the other month when I read like mad (August to be exact). To read regularly is what I hope to achieve this year (which actually already failed on the first month, but still…) I’m still gonna try for the next months! Let’s see then. I’m gonna post the books I read in 2014 on the usual Books list tab, so keep an eye on me haha

unrelated image just because I want to

unrelated image just because I want to


  1. 100% Wolf – Jayne Lyons


  1. The Naked Traveler 4 – Trinity
  2. My Life As: Actor – Haqi Achmad
  3. Surprise! Surprise! – Agatha Christie


  1. Hallowe’en Party – Agatha Christie
  2. My Life As: Writer – Haqi Achmad
  3. Ranah 3 Warna – Ahmad Fuadi
  4. 5cm – Donny Dhirgantoro
  5. Marginalia – Dyah Rinni
  6. Divortiare – Ika Natassa
  7. The Lost Symbol – Dan Brown
  8. Charlie, Si Jenius Dungu – Daniel Keyes


  1. The Alchemist – Paulo Coelho
  2. Dari Merem ke Melek – Ernest Prakasa
  3. Merdeka Dalam Bercanda – Pandji Pragiwaksono
  4. Filosofi Kopi – Dee
  5. Bukan Negeri Dongeng – Helvy Tiana Rosa, Izzatul Jannah, dkk
  6. Young On Top – Billy Boen
  7. Misteri Shalat Subuh – Dr. Raghib As-Sirjani
  8. Berani Mengubah – Pandji Pragiwaksono
  9. Three Cups of Tea – Greg Mortenson & David Oliver Relin
  10. Percepatan Rezeki – Ippho ‘Right’ Santosa
  11. 7 Keajaiban Rezeki – Ippho ‘Right’ Santosa
  12. Freya Valkrye – Tita Rosianti
  13. Unfriend You – Dyah Rinni


  1. Food Combining di Bulan Ramadhan – Erikar Lebang
  2. Rantau 1 Muara – Ahmad Fuadi
  3. The Babysitters Club #14 – Ann M Martin
  4. The Babysitters Club #16 – Ann M Martin
  5. Kelas 5 di St.Claire – Enid Blyton
  6. Pasukan Mau Tahu: Misteri Penyamar Ulung – Enid Blyton
  7. Kastana Taklukkan Jakarta – Soleh Solihun


  1. For One More Day – Mitch Albom
  2. Detektif Imai dan Rahasia Pesan Api – Dyah Rinni


  1. How to Train Your Dragon – Cressida Cowell
  2. How to Be a Pirate – Cressida Cowell
  3. How to Speak Dragonese – Cressida Cowell
  4. How to Cheat a Dragon’s Curse – Cressida Cowell
  5. How to Twist a Dragon’s Tale – Cressida Cowell
  6. Kreatif Sampai Mati – Wahyu Aditya
  7. Ayahku (Bukan) Pembohong – Tere Liye
  8. Magical Seira #1 – Sitta Karina
  9. Magical Seira #2 – Sitta Karina
  10. Magical Seira: Sand Castle – Sitta Karina
  11. Princess on The Brink – Meg Cabot
  12. I Can (not) Hear – Feby Indirani & San C. Wirakusuma
  13. More About Nothing – Wimar Witoelar
  14. Ngeblog Dengan Hati – Ndoro Kakung

It’s okay


Only few more hours left and it’s gonna be 2014. Thus, this will be the last post I make in 2013. At least I’m gonna end this not-so-good year for my blogging activity with a post.

I just realized something recently.

I used to be highly attached to things. It’s hard to let go of things that I possessed. The picture of losing what was mine was far from possible. I thought I was gonna have it like, forever. Toys I got, dresses I loved, crayons I used together with sisters, people I loved, even the time I had back than as a kid should’ve always stayed. I was so afraid to grow up back then. It’s like you know you’re going to be happy that way, so why let go?

The first realization stroke when my grandfather passed away, I was eight. So it’s possible to lose a person that ‘belongs’ to you. I didn’t fully understand so the feeling of sad is kind of the least compared to the surprised that I got.

I lost my school stationary quiet a lot when I was an elementary student. Being borrowed and didn’t comeback, forgot to place it somewhere and missing, dropped it or just mysteriously disappeared haha. At first it felt sad, but later I realized that it’s just things. Inanimate object. Unlike my grandpa, those weren’t gonna cried because they’re afraid. Not gonna starved or hydrated for being lost. It’s something that you can replace with just anything new. Guess that’s the first time that I learnt the art of letting go.

But it’s just a start. 

It’s harder than I thought to let go of something bigger than just a pencil. My happy childhood or should I call it past now. I kept finding myself trying so hard to get back, longing for the feeling when everything was just fine. Looking through the old photo albums, old toys, diaries, anything that enable me to remember again, and maybe happy, again.

Time passed, a lot of things happened. A lot of loss occurred. The contact to my friends, the moments, school things, money (haha), hope and dreams. Several times I faced the time when I got to learn to let go. To detach my arms out of those what was mine without feeling too much of sadness and lost. Nothing last forever, that’s true.

This time, I may gonna have to let go of another thing, something that I never thought I have to lose this fast. It’s unimaginable at first. I resisted hard. Like I’d probably enter the grief phase of Kubler-Ross.

But then the realization came. It’s only things. Yes it’s precious. Yes it holds a lot of memories. Yes it’s huge. Yes it’s hard. But, to my surprise, I can see myself doing that.

I know this year hasn’t been a great year for my blog (it’s so dry of inspiration I’m gonna die T_T) but I’ve got to let it pass again. Instead of cursing myself for not doing it best, I’m just gonna prepare for the next step so it can be better. As much as it sounds like an excuse wrapped up in good words, that’s all I can say for welcoming the new year. /sad/

Happy 2014 everyone!! I hope you made 2013 better than me! :D

Book Report: Bukan di Negeri Dongeng


Hello! After arguing with my own self about what to post in the blog, I finally decided to write a book report that for all this time is kept in the shelf. This is one of my holiday project: to write a report after I read a book. Unfortunately it’s written in Indonesian, and to translate it into English, I guess, will change the feels that I put when I wrote it. (or it can also be because I’m lazy to do so). Anyway, here we go!

Bukan di Negeri Dongeng adalah kumpulan kisah-kisah nyata tentang para aktivis dan pengurus PKS (Partai Keadilan Sejahtera). Buku ini disusun oleh, salah satunya, Helvy Tiana Rosa. Kisahnya memang singkat-singkat tapi isinya luar biasa. Inspiratif sih.

cr: kalengkentang

cr: kalengkentang

Dari semua ceritanya bisa ditarik benang merah: kalau mereka adalah orang-orang yang sebisa mungkin memanfaatkan waktu yang dimiliki untuk berbuat baik dan bermanfaat bagi orang banyak. Gimana ya, mereka cuma tidak punya waktu untuk hal-hal yang tidak berguna dan tidak penting. Mereka selalu punya waktu untuk berdakwah, membantu sesama, belajar, membantu urusan rumah tangga, merawat keluarga, dan lainnya. 24 jam hanya untuk yang baik. Waktu tidur mereka rata-rata 4-5 jam sehari. Quote yang tepat tuh, bisa jadi ini:

“Hidup memang hanya sekali dan kau tak ingin sedetik pun melewatinya tanpa perjuangan” (HTR)

Ada juga inspirasi lain soal ketulusan. Mostly, mereka dalam buku ini, adalah orang-orang yan selalu berusaha menjaga silaturahim dan benar-benar menganggap sesama muslim sebagai saudaranya. Benar-benar bisa sedih dan menangis saat saudaranya sedang kesusahan. Berusaha selalu membantu sebisanya. Ini, salah satu hal yang masih harus mly pribadi tingkatkan.

Mereka juga memegang teguh islam dan selalu percaya sepenuhnya pada Allah SWT serta janji-janjiNya. Tidak pernah merasa takut kekurangan atau sengsara. Hebat.

Buku ini dibagi ke dalam enam bab kisah yang semuanya inspirasional. Personally, it motivates me to be a better moslem. :)